Reading that at first instantly causes frustration as I know Lana will be devastated. She has spent so long searching for her parents after feeling rejected by them once due to them giving her up and now her dad is doing it again.
If I was in her shoes, I would be heartbroken and I think I would just shut off all contact from that point.
HOWEVER, I also understand it fully from Matt's point of view. He doesn't have any connection with Lana, at all. Sophie doesn't have much but it's a tiny bit easier for her as she carried Lana for 9 months and actually got to meet her when she was born. Matt never experienced that.
Yes, it was his own fault but now it just makes him very unsure about building a father-daughter relationship with a complete strangers.
He's probably scared of what it will be like and worried he won't be able to live up to expectations. Matt knows he will end up having to force a lot because right now, he doesn't feel any emotion towards the situation. Therefore, although it isn't great that he doesn't want to meet her, it may save her a lot of hurt.
I think Lucie deciding to tackle the situation this way in the story was such a good idea. It's so true and honest, rather than being like a fairytale where everything is happy.
In the real world, it wouldn't be easy and Matt probably wouldn't jump at the opportunity with open arms. One, because it's not like him and two, because he has never felt a connection with Lana, from the moment he found out that Sophie was pregnant.
Therefore, she has made this storyline so truthful to what it would really be like and what it would truly feel like. Matt was feeling pressured into doing something just because it was seen as 'right' not because he felt like it was the right thing for him.
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